Good morning. Can I serve you anything? Coffee, tea, whiskey?
I’m posting that after Kevin’s morning routine post cause it makes sense.
The sad thing is that I would have made Muse animatics on them if I didn’t have that much work. I swear some of their song fit so well (especially Undisclosed Desires and Newborn, for those who know), I’m probably gonna have to something about it eventually.
I have to notice the domesticity they’re soaked in once they move in together, it’s just so easy to picture…
“there’s a summer palace in ios outside the capital. my mother designed the gardens there. they say it’s built on artesian foundations.” he thought of the meandering walks, the delicate, flowering southern orchids, the sprays of orange blossom. “it’s cool in summer, and there are fountains, and tracks for riding.” his pulse beat with uncharacteristic nerves, so that he felt almost shy. “when all this is over… we could take horses and stay a week in the palace.” since their night together in karthas, he hadn’t dared to speak about the future. he felt laurent holding himself carefully, and there was a strange pause. after a moment, laurent said, softly, “i’d like that.”
Thinking about that bit capri where Laurent gently whispers in DAmens ear “ you look like a whore… filthy painted slut” lollll ( after nearly killing him days before ) and when damen jerks away in horror Laurent’s like “ see uncle see how he rebels against me” sjsajsjsjsb
Another thing I liked is how Laurent’s trauma is handled, because usually when a character has a Secretly Traumatic Backstory there’s some kind of annoyingly maudlin scene about it. Either they get into some kind of big conflict with the love interest and are forced to explain themselves so they don’t get judged or dumped, or the love interest intrudes on a vulnerable moment and sees them being abused or somehow handling the consequences of that abuse, or they are explained the circumstances by a benevolent third party, and this changes their view of the abused character because now they’re god’s poorest meow meow and I just fucking hate it every time.
Like, this is why I stopped reading this type of story: because the amount of crowding and backing into a corner and privacy violation that happens to abused characters in order to coax them into opening up about it and reassure them that they’re okay is so annoying. I feel like I’ve been psychologyposting on main too much lately, so I might explain later why I feel this way or I might not but in any case I hate it.
I love that this book is the literal opposite of that, that Damen not only doesn’t crowd Laurent and insist that he open up, but that Damen ensuring space and privacy and time to calm down for Laurent when he’s overwhelmed is repeatedly portrayed as an act of friendship and caring and love (that Laurent later reciprocates, because they both lose their heads when something pushes their buttons and understand this about each other).
I also love how Damen doesn’t fall in love with Laurent because Laurent is sad and fucked up, or because he’s so brave to have put up with the abuse, or because Damen too is sad like Laurent (I’m physically restraining myself from going off on a rant about how shared trauma is hardly ever a good foundation for a relationship): no, he falls in love with Laurent because he’s whip-smart, and a good leader, and funny, and tender once he opens up, and a lateral thinker, and a man of integrity who keeps his promises and pays back his debts (and because he’s pretty and blonde and good at sporty shit that Damen likes). Some of these things may have been shaped by the awful shit that happened to Laurent, as they were also probably shaped by his station or his education or his body type or any other circumstance of his life, but it’s refreshing to have a character who went through awful shit but who also has other things going on for him that make him loveable instead of being completely defined by his trauma. And even when Damen finds out, the way he thinks about Laurent literally doesn’t change at all - the things he likes about Laurent are still seen in the same light as always, Laurent’s personality as a whole is still the same, even his attitude towards what Laurent did to him when they first met doesn’t change much (as we see in the short story epilogue). And even this last bit is really cool because Laurent is never stripped of his agency or made out into some sort of helpless victim currently, both of which would probably mortify him with how much he’s trying to establish that he’s not at any opportunity.
And I also like how it’s not necessary for Laurent to tell Damen about it in order for them to be close, nor does Damen push him into it. And everyone else seems to agree that it’s Laurent’s story to tell when and how he wants it told, except for the villain of the piece, who reveals it in the most awful way possible. This is particularly important because Damen spends three books grabbing everyone in Laurent’s life by the shoulders and shaking them and going, “Why do you care about this guy??? Have you noticed that he’s kind of an ashole?? Why are you loyal to him?? Why???” and no one ever says anything, because they’re protective of Laurent and don’t want to take away his agency or privacy because it’s his fucking story to tell. Even after Damen finds out, we don’t see him mention it and he probably lets Laurent open up or not on his own terms, as he does with everything else that doesn’t directly concern him. Even though we’ve seen through Laurent’s dialogue time and time again that he’s probably conceptualizing it in some fucked up ways in his own head and needs yet to realize that he’s not some kind of twisted pervert for what happened to him, crowding him about it before he’s ready won’t accomplish much.
And the story itself backs all this by never being maudlin about it even though it’s obvious what happened pretty early on (I figured it out really early, I remember suspecting it almost immediately and being dead sure of it by the Ancel scene in the garden); it kind of elipses around it, gives hints and parallels to other characters in similar circumstances, has Laurent say incoherent shit that makes sense in context, has other characters hint at it, but with Laurent being one of the central characters it’s cool that the story gives him that respect and doesn’t wallow in the tragedy of it all.
my roman empire in captive prince trilogy is “Whether his beauty would survive adolescence no one would ever know, for Nicaise would not see fifteen now.”
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